I was writing in this very book last Sunday. I like to keep a pretty blank journal with me, of a smaller size so I can tuck it into my purse and jot down any spiritual impressions I receive. I find that it is comforting and enlightening to go back and review what I have written. I often forget the little things the spirit whispers to me if it isn't life altering or shattering.
As I reviewed my notes from church last Sunday, I came across a thought I had jotted down and I would like to explore it right now.
The instructor of the class I was in must have said this,
"The Atonement brings healing."
Under this quote I wrote,
"Physical too? Do I need physical if I am healed emotionally?"
Growing up I was told over and over again, "Remember who you are."
Over the years I have come to think that means to remember that God created me, just as I am, and He doesn't make mistakes. So I should accept myself as well as God accepts me. Completely.
Lately it has been difficult for me to accept that I am limited and sick over half of the time. I don't like it.
My first thought after the instructor talked of healing was of physical healing. Was it possible for the Atonement to help me physically.
But I thought about how I have been taught to accept myself the way God made me.
If I could tap into the Atonement and be healed of all negative thoughts about my limitations, would I even need to be healed physically?
If I was just okay with myself sick as I am well-- what would be the problem here?
Not that it would stop being difficult.
Not that my family wouldn't sometimes have challenges it wouldn't have if I was well.
Not that my friends would suddenly stop having to help me on short notice when I get sick. (and they don't have to, they just want to. Unfathomable)
But I just would stop fighting these consequences. I would accept it as well as I ever accepted being well, because I would know God made me this way . Whatever challenges I, my family, and my friends have because of it, are all needed. So there is no reason to worry or stress.
Can the atonement help me this way? Oh yes, I am thinking it could.
Will I let it?