Who I am

At one point in my life I had a boyfriend who was poisoning my mind.  He told me over and over how I was unworthy, worthless, and less than. I believed him until I began a serious study of how God felt about me.  I thought I was just studying the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  I thought I was just studying the scriptures to learn more about religion.  I couldn't learn about those things without learning what God feels about me.  They went hand in hand.  My religion taught me how valuable I am personally to God.  It was surprising.  It gave me power to take my life into my own hands and this boy's words one day didn't have any more power over me because of it.

Later in my life I was poisoning my own mind.  I told myself I was disgustingly fat, unworthy of love, and therefore worthless on this earth.  (I had children during this time.  Stupid girl.)  Because of what I looked like, I punished myself on a daily basis.  This continued until I began a serious study of again, my religion and how God felt about me.  My church believes there is always hope in the atonement because God finds me infinitely valuable.

I still remember both times how powerfully I felt the Holy Ghost affirm how God felt about me.  It was overwhelming.  It was shocking.  I wasn't in a place either time that I would have believed it otherwise.

What pulled me out of these places of lies each time was finding out who I was.  And I was God's.  It was finding out who God thought I was.  And he thought I was wonderful and full of potential and value.

I am of worth to God.  So are you.

Truth trumps untruth.  Every time. 

How powerful of a person would I be if I didn't forget how He feels about my worth. 

Lately I have forgotten those experiences.  Well, obviously I didn't forget them because here I am writing about them.  I just didn't have them on the forefront of my mind.  I haven't thought in a long while about how powerful a witness I have already had that I am of worth to God.  When I remember this, no one can tell me any different and have it affect me.  When I remember this, I don't panic when I have pressing questions or concerns, I just wait patiently on the Lord to tell me the truth.  He loves me, so He will tell me when it is right. 

I am His.  So I am of value. 

The end.